Monday, 21 March 2016

When Work Doesn't Quite Work...

Around 8 weeks ago I was sitting in my study, contemplating the month ahead and the work I had planned out.  I had this sudden urge to be back in an office environment, to be around other people during my working day and perhaps try something a little more challenging.

I have loved the freedom that being freelance gave me; it came at a time when we needed someone to be at home for school drop off and pick up, and for some one on one time with Eli.  I have been able to be around for assemblies and school events and I love that.  But I also felt the need to push myself in my career again.


Confident that it wouldn't be too difficult to find something in the line of work I was used to, I duly sent off my CV for various jobs in our local vicinity.

Turns out...it's not really as simple as that.

According to the agencies and companies I applied to, I am lacking in recent experience for the type of administrative work that I used to do, but I am over qualified for anything less than the type of administrative work that I used to do...quite an interesting dilemma.

I started off being quite particular about the job I wanted and when that panned out to nothing, I started being less particular.  And I still got nowhere.

I can't pretend that although I am a big believer in doors only opening when it is right, I haven't still felt a little bit injured by the fact that I am finding it so difficult to get a job.  I may have had 3 years out but that doesn't mean that I am not still very much able (and willing) to work hard to do the job.  Or that I wouldn't be good at it.

So what's a girl to do?

Perhaps it isn't the right time for me to get a job, perhaps there is the ideal job just waiting around the corner, perhaps I need to give up the game altogether; after all, my ideal is that I will sign with an agent and get to write books full time but that is a pipe dream which is also failing to turn out quite the way I imagined.

It would be so easy to feel disheartened about the situation.  James has a good, steady job but if I were able to secure a little more work it would just make the extra bit of difference month to month.  I think it would also be good for my well-being; to not just have myself for company throughout my working day but to get to be around other people as well.  However, I am choosing not to feel dispirited.  There is so much that I want to do with my life, so many other things I would choose to do if I had endless amounts of time and resources that perhaps it's time I knocked on a few of those doors instead.

Okay so it isn't quite turning out the way I imagined that it would; perhaps there was a touch of arrogance about my confidence that I would simply send out my CV to a few companies and then waltz into a job, but that doesn't mean that the pull I felt to do something else was a wrong emotion.  Maybe it just means that I am searching in the wrong place and perhaps something even better is just around the corner.

And that's a pretty exciting thought.

2 comments:

  1. Good luck with the job hunting. I'm planning on doing the opposite and giving up my day job to do something for myself. I'm just not sure what yet. I've just bought your book and I'm looking forward to reading it.

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  2. Indeed. I love your positive attitude and yes... I am sure the right thing is just around the corner!

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